Wednesday, February 13, 2008
im miss daddy so much.it has been 3 months plus since he passed away.sometimes i tot tat hes still around n when i come to realised its just my tots.he used to be at home n send me to sch all the time.i miss spending time with him so much.going out to but groceries every weekend.massage his leg everynight.listening to his nag everytime.his jokes.i miss holding his hands while walking along the markets.i miss kissing him before i go to sch.i miss sitting wit him watching tv together.i miss breaking fast wit u.i miss celebrating hari raya wit u.i miss u daddy.i miss u so much.i miss everything about him.
a dream wanting my dad to witness my future,to play with my kids.to witnessed my marrige is all gone.sometimes i just cant believe tat i lost my dad at the age of 17.sometimes i felt like running away from knowing it.im turnin 18 but yet i dun feel like one.i still felt like his little daughter.
a song from sudirman describes how i felt when hes hospitalised for 2 months.
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